Enjoyed a "quiet" evening with friends on New Year's Eve. I don't think I could've made it at home alone. My friends got me through the night with lots of laughter, snacks, loud music, and just plain silliness. However, I was ready to go to bed by 9:15!! My friend made the statement, "Okay, at 10:15, we have to turn the music off, turn the t.v. on, and get ready to watch the ball drop." At that point, I really thought it was at least 10:30 or 11:00, and that's when I discovered it was only 9:15!! I really had to struggle to stay awake until midnight. Thank you, friends, for being there for me and making me laugh and forget.

Today is my last day of Christmas vacation, and that makes me very sad. The last day of break is always so hard. There's still so much I want to get done, and so little time to do it, plus, I want to rest on my last day. But, I don't see that happening. I've just got so much left to squeeze in to this last day. Of course, I'm not getting any of it done, sitting here writing on my blog!! I'm enjoying a cup of Starbucks coffee that one of my friends gave me for Christmas! Yum! Good stuff!!

I'm ready, however, to get this school year over. It's been a horrible year all around. Not just at school, but, in every area of my life. I'm so ready for things to calm down and get better. I want to smile and laugh again. I want to be happy again. I don't know when or if that's ever going to happen, but, I'm ready. I have never been this upset for this long, except when my mom was dying of cancer. Losing a loved one is truly the hardest thing in life to go through. Why does life have to be SO dang hard? I understand that struggles make one stronger. I understand that loss is part of life. I understand that this is all just a normal part of life, but, I don't understand why you are allowed to be SO happy, then, it's all yanked out from underneath you. I don't understand how someone can tell you one thing, yet DO something totally different. How does that make sense? I know that God is in control, and everything will work out the way HE sees fit. Still praying for peace, comfort, and for the pain to be gone.

God is good.