One of my favorite quotes: "If it's IMPORTANT to you, you WILL find a way. It it's NOT, you will make EXCUSES."

"Life is too short to not be happy". This has ALWAYS been my philosophy in life. ALWAYS. I have always tried to be positive in every aspect of my life. I've never been one to dwell on problems, the past, etc. Funny how one person can totally squash your lifelong outlook on life. I've never, in my whole entire life allowed one person to change me this much. From this experience, I have learned to be very guarded, not trust so easily, not fall so easily, not dream. No more dreams for me. Just survive and make it through the day. Pray. Pray, constantly, to make it through every second of the day, without a tear.

I'm trying really hard to be happy again. Life just KEEPs throwing curve balls at me though. It's getting harder to dodge them lately.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy. I have good kids, a grandbaby, and my daddy is still alive. I have much to be thankful for. I am thankful for the many blessings I've been allowed. I am humbled by my good fortune.

However, there's still that nasty old wound, that will never be healed. Can't be. Permanent hole in the 'ol ticker. A hole that aches. A hole that is black and bottomless. It's there, and always will be. With lots of prayer and God's amazing grace, I will, however, survive.


Amazing grace, how sweet the sound...