Feeling like I don't really know which way to turn.  What's my next move?  Do I stay?  Do I go?  If I go, WHERE do I go?  Feeling pretty lost, as usual.  I would love it if God would just hand me my owner's manual and tell me how it's all going to work out.  It's those "little details" I'd like to know all about - At this point, what should I do with my life? Should I go or should I stay?  If I stay, what then?  If I go, where then?  Which state?  Which job?  Questions.  Decisions.  Mysteries.  Help, Lord, I don't know what to do, where to turn, where to go.

Endings bring new beginnings.  Am I ready for a new beginning?  A new setting?  Am I ready to start over, AGAIN?  Starting over is both exciting and extremely hard.  I just don't know.  My daughter recently texted me and asked me to tell her what I thought she should do this summer.  How do I begin to even know what SHE should do, when I have NO clue what it is I'm supposed to do for the rest of my life?  I don't have her answers.  I don't have my answers.  I'm lost.  I need help making these decisions too.  There is no one to help me, except God.  It's really hard making decisions over and over and over by yourself.  I've made poor choices.  I've made good choices.  Right now, I'm undecidedly, overwhelmingly, helplessly drowning in indecision, and it just stinks royally.  Dear Lord, I really need your help with all of these decisions.  I need that owner's manual.  I need a clue.  I need a revelation, an answer, a sign. 

I'm here.  I'm listening.  I'm waiting.  I need your help.  Show me, tell me, reveal to me, as I sit here trying not to tap my toes.  Trying really hard to be still and hear your voice.

Love,
me