Thank you, Lord!! I am there!! I am happy. I AM going to be okay. You know my heart, and You alone will give me what my heart needs and desires. You helped me find my happy again. Thank you, and God, I love you. You had my perfect plan all along, as always.

"Never will I leave you. Never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5

Came across this today. Thank you, Lord. You are the one constant in my life. What an awesome promise. Only You. I can count on You. You, and You alone, will NEVER leave me...never forsake me.

Thank You for always being there for me, even in the darkest of hours; even when I don't deserve it. This verse alone is a gift, but, the promise in this verse is the ultimate gift. What a simple promise, yet profound, never ending, and ever present, from this day forward, in my heart.

What a surprise. You sounded good. You sounded happy. I'm glad you're happy.

I'm getting there slowly, but, surely. It's almost been a year. This time last year, it was all falling apart...for the fourth time. Why didn't I listen the first time?

I'm trying. I'm trying really hard to move on. Every now and then, I slip. Many memories are triggered by a song on the radio, a rainy day, a football game on the television...That's when I slip and fall back. Then, I try my best to pick myself back up...again and again. It might take a day or two, but, I always get back up. I'm not a quitter. Never have been. I guess that's why it was so hard for me to understand. I know when I want something, I don't give up. But, maybe that's why you gave up so easily....you just thought you knew what you wanted at first, then, you realized you wanted what you already had all along....or didn't want someone else to have it??

I can see more clearly now. Things I didn't notice last year, I now see. The things I DID notice are now more magnified. One of these days, I WILL be able to say, "Thank God for unanswered prayers." Not right now. It still feels like an unusually cruel, mean joke. Someday, it will feel okay. It will be well with my soul. I know, this all sounds crazy. But, this is how I'm working it all out. Slowly, but surely.

Like I said, I'm glad you're happy.

Heartbroken and in complete disbelief. Just total shock. A very dear, sweet young friend passed away today. I just cannot believe it. What a good, good, person. He was just like a son or little brother to me. My heart just breaks for his mom, dad, wife, and two very young children. His baby is just months old. Born probably less than six months ago? I do know he's in Heaven right now though. He's laughing and joking around with the best of them, I'm sure. Love ya, Brandon.

It's a new day. It's a good day. I'm getting there. I smiled today. I'm starting to get my happy back. I can feel it creeping in. It's been over a year. A long, sad year. No looking back. I have to look forward. I will make it.

"If it's important to you, you'll find a way. If it's not, you'll find an excuse."

"Never miss a chance to dance." :)

So excited about tomorrow!! Going to the Oklahoma State University vs. Kansas State game, in Stillwater, with my friend!! It's supposed to be cold & windy, and doesn't start until 7:00 p.m. Hoping we don't freeze!! Must go by and get hand and foot warmers before I leave!! Wearing lots of layers and all my OSU clothes!

I'm hoping this allergy/sinus thing I've had all week is all gone or even some better by tomorrow. I've been freezing in my classroom, with no heat!!

Going to a wedding next Friday at the Cherokee Casino in West Siloam Springs, Oklahoma! I had NO idea there was such a town in Oklahoma, until just the other day when I received the wedding invitation. You learn something new everyday!! It should be fun! I've never been to a wedding at a casino!! Spending the night, so we won't have to drive home late, since the wedding starts at 7:00 p.m., and it's a little over a two-hour drive.

Going to bed now. Long day tomorrow!! Can't wait!! GO POKES!!! :)