June, please slow down. I don't want to see July. Summer is going by WAY too quickly. I'm trying to keep busy.

I went on a ten day vacation to Louisiana with a friend. We stayed in Baton Rouge; visited St. Francisville, New Orleans, and lots of places in between. I met a multitude of sweet people with wonderful Southern accents, rode a boat at sunset, sampled new and interesting foods, tasted my first beignets, saw some beautiful old homes and churches, lots of lush gardens, shopped 'til we dropped, found some treasures, walked all over New Orleans, rode a trolley, and had a great time. I was able to take some great pictures, but, not near enough. Hopefully, I'll be able to post a few soon.

Celebrated Jakob's first birthday as soon as I returned from Louisiana. I made his birthday cakes and took them to Lake Eufaula, where tons of his family members were camping. Got to see lots of old friends! Jakob is getting SO big. He learned how to walk before his first birthday, and has several teeth!! He loves his "Grammy"(and she loves him!!!), and cried to go home with me when I went to see him after returning from Louisiana!! :) He's a perfect little angel.

Have been super busy with my massage business since returning from Louisiana. Went to a send off party for a fellow teacher who is moving to Dallas in a couple of days. Went shopping with a friend today in Claremore and Pryor, after getting pedicures and a new haircut. Had fun. It's been a whirlwind of a summer, so far. I'm not ready to even think about going back to school. Summer is way too short, but, it's not over yet. Still more things to do before it's over, lots of plans with friends, and a couple more road trips.

One month today. It's been one month. Longest month ever. I try to forget, but, I fail there too. I try to move on. It looks like I have, on the outside. The inside is still stuck in time, forever. Such an ugly word - forever. Such a long time. I still remember everything. I've played everything over and over in my mind. Still no answer. What did I do? Why? What a nightmare. What a cruel joke. Life. Dear Lord, please just help me get through this. Why can't I just close this door? Why can't I just move on? Why do I have to remember everything? How long is this going to hurt? There's that "forever" word again...