Thought I was doing really well, until the middle of last night. I woke up, probably around 2:30 or 3:00 a.m., and just cried. Crazy. Why now? It hits me at the absolute oddest of times. I do really well at times, then, just out of the blue, it hits me again. And then, again. Sometimes it's a song. Sometimes it's something someone says. Sometimes it's the thought of Christmas alone, again. Sometimes, who knows? When will I be done with the crying? When will I truly be happy again? Or...will I?? Probably never. Not that way. I just don't think it's ever going to get any better. So tired. Ready for Christmas break. Just want to sleep...

God is good....